K, I started that Hate list, and realized that there's not a lot that I hate about my job. It's more what I miss from my old job. I miss the university. I miss the atmosphere, I miss the people, I miss my time off, I miss the work, I miss my JOB.
I do not miss the commute.
But I miss my 45 minute lunch break and two-15 minute coffee breaks. I miss having a fantastic gym and a walking path around a lake at my fingertips. I miss being able to take classes (for FREEEEE!) and I miss my friends. I miss being in The City every day, so if I need something, I am right there to get it.
What brought this all up was a meeting I had with my boss. It as part of my personal development plan, and she asked me where I saw myself in five years. I couldn't answer. I told her that I had had a 10-year plan, but that that ended when I left the university.
So she asked me what my 10-year plan was.
This is it:
I planned on taking my three free classes a year to work towards my BA degree, major in History. By the time my ten (or so) years were done, my kids would be done school and I would be FREE!!! My plan was to be able to move to Europe and either work there or maybe go for a Master's degree there. Maybe get a degree in archaeology. I want to live where the history that I love actually happened.
But getting this job in my home city changed all that.
My boss asked why. Why? Because I can't afford to pay for a university class! I don't have any extra cash laying around. I don't have time to be driving to The City at night or on the weekend. I have to run my kids all over.
The whole conversation made me really remember my plan. I had taken it into consideration when I accepted this job and I thought that the pros for taking it vastly outweighed the cons. Being closer to my kids, not wasting two hours driving every day, etc. However, I am coming to realize that I want that 10-year plan. I want to finish it.
So, now I'm trying to get back into the university. I'm pickier now, because I know it and will not just take any ol' job. I want the same pay, or more, than I am getting now. I want my holidays up front and not have to work a year for them. I'm not willing to take just any job to get my foot in the door again.
I have applied to two jobs there, one that would have put me back with the people I worked with before (sort of) and one that would have me starting at way more than I am making now. However, the second one will for sure be filled internally and I think probably the first one, too. I am going to keep my eye open and be ready to apply for anything that comes up.